I’m… I dunno.
A lot of shit has happened recently, and I’m kind of not equipped to deal with it all.
I ask myself why the hell I’m waiting, and then remember that things need to settle first before I shake them all up again.
I’m self-medicating just to cope with having to be awake.
This is not me. It’s self-destructive and I can’t allow it, if not for my own sake then for that of those around me.
I’m not ready to face that reality again. Can I be this for a little while longer?
Also, I need to work on my selfie game. Not publicly, because ew, no. No pictures yet.
When I do it’s gonna be like POW.
I miss fencing. My eye needs to heal soon.
I don’t want to fall apart.